Sunday, May 30, 2010

Hannah's Baptism

Hannah was baptized on May 22, 2010. It was so beautiful. It was a very small baptism with a few friends and was wonderful. I am so proud of her decision to be baptized. She is such a good girl and listens. She is also the cleanest kid you'll find. Her room is never a mess and she makes her bed every morning, unlike mom. She is such a great example to her siblings. After the baptism we went out to dinner at Chili's. She kept telling us she was embarrased because she had on a white dress and told us people were looking at her. love you Hannah!

Hannah's best friend, Ashlyn.

Hannah's baptism cake! She picked out the colors.

This is actually a cake that I made for my friend Lisa, who will be having twins at the end of August. It was a super busy week and I am caked out! It takes a lot of work into making these cakes and planning a baby shower and a baptism!

May Fun

Easter was great! We had a little Easter Egg Hunt at our house in the afternoon and the kid's loved it! Of course who doesn't love searching for eggs filled with candy. This is posted a bit late, but it was very low key and nice. We had dinner with the Beans the night before and the kid's were out of control as usual. We loved it.

May was so busy and I can't believe it is over. Hannah's birthday was on the 7th and it was one of the easiest birthday's ever! The only thing she wanted was to have the Bean's over and have a Banana Cream Pie. That's it! No fuss, no games, just dinner and dessert and a sleepover. It was awesome and I can't believe my little girl is 8. Hannah is such a sweet girl who LOVES her baby sister. She is an avid reader and loves her friends. She is such a little momma and I usually find her "telling her brothers" what they can and can't do in my voice. She still loves Barbies and Webkinz.

Something I have been talking about constantly is my need to get to the zoo! I have been trying since Feb and the schedules finally worked out where we had a free Saturday morning. Something I really noticed while being there is the fact that we definitely had the most kids! Although I think 4 kids is a lot, it's not outrageous and the looks we get makes us laugh.

Thursday, May 13, 2010


I recently saw a youtube video of someone named Stephenie from, it really made me reflect on its message. After each baby I work out, eat right and really struggle with losing weight. I have been doing p90x and 8 weeks into the program have only lost 3 lbs. Counting calories, working out sometimes twice a day and it really wears me out! It becomes my obsession. All day every day I count calories, I look at the food and decide if its worth putting in my body, I work out and see if I can squeeze in another work out somewhere else during the day. It becomes almost all I think about. And it upsets me. I'll be honest. I cry, I become mad but I still can't quite give up because if I do, I know it will just get worse. Now, when I read this I see a crazy person who is not living her life, her obessesion is living her. I don't feel like that person but sometimes I see a glimpse of her. My friends and husband always joke they like pregnant Bella because I become much more lax about what I eat and I don't stress. Hum...I do have four kids...hahhahah. Now what does this have to do with this woman you might ask? I remember hearing about her and being on Oprah but I never read her blog. Well, these last few days I have been going back and reading her blog and she is beautiful. Here is this woman who has been given this trial in her life, affecting every aspect of her life. She talks of her struggles with her physical health, how it hurts to hold her children. How she misses her beauty and who she used to be. Then, you see how she is growing into this beautiful person who is not taking for granted anything. You see her love for her Savior and Heavenly Father and how she credits them with her life and family. You see her accept who she is and her struggles and she knows she will have more struggles down the road. It made me ashamed. Here I am stressing out over something so wrong. I'm not saying its bad to be healthy, but there is an extreme. I will never be the size I was in higschool, I'm not a teenager anymore. My body has given birth to four beautiful children. I have so many blessings in my life. I have a beautiful and wonderful husband who loves me, stretch marks and all. Children who drive me insane and light up my life and I strive for that relationship with my Father in heaven and Savior. To be a better person, not to fit into a size 6. I was sharing this youtube video with my husband the other night and he said, "Why do you always watch such sad stuff that make you feel awful". I replied, "This doesn't make me feel awful in the way you think." It makes me search for the important things in life. When all is said and done, it is not the fact that I spent my days on the treadmill that are going to count. It is my relationship with my Heavenly Father. It is how I spent those days loving my children and teaching them. It is how I spent those days helping others and serving them. Yes, I am still going to work out. I want to be healthy and eat healthy, we are supposed to take care of ourselves, but I don't want it to be my life. I don't want to not play with my kids or take them somewhere because I need to work out.